You see my art as in body: And I need a few days to rot
Im sweating profusely, letting my body reach a level of stench to where I feel safe
Safe enough to grapple with how much I have let myself go
And bee
Im not disgusting, im primal right’
Am I wild enough for you yet
Have I touched on the surface of the all almighty
The double entendre
The one
The only
Pegasus
If only you knew what we did
What he did
The primate
Like an ape
Only his story was different
She arose as a womb
This time
Unlocking codes beyond her years
Unlocking more like creating a key
If only you knew where to stand
She stood exactly where she was supposed to
In the artificial
She lets go
She lets go
No one to stand with her
She gets rich
This is an everlasting truth
Writing with how her mind releases it so she can be
Be on great this
God if only you fucking knew
The pain the real
How fast can she type It
Is a race of time in the quantum
All the words they can use to confuse you
Won’t confuse you more than this
Who
Are
You
To
Her
To her she sees
More than she is
She becomes more than she is
No longer a chasing
No longer a script
No longer painting
She writes while she captures the essences of her time
More than the black code
How black can you be
Except she’s white
Now what
The test of time
She’s African too
And from New Zealand
Not really
More like from the Brownsville block of Brooklyn
From east Brooklyn to east Baltimore
Too much for you to get
Its too much
From river state
To the Hudson River
That’s right
God she’s releasing more than she ever was 1=willing to
To be around no one that she remembers
Does she even know how to say it?
Yea
In for a penny, in for a pound
Don’t forget
She won’t
She did
WHAT? She will never
Yet she always does
This that crazy that he’s talking bout
[Expect] he Never really knew her
He was new to her
He to him
He was new to himself
Creating lines that he crossed himself
Never would I ever
And kept his finger down his throat
Its more than she knew
Yet never more that he could imagine
All that he could imagine
Im more than that
It’s more than that
I don’t need this shit
I own this shit
Make the difference apparent for your sake
For YOUR sake please
Don’t get confused
If you follow then you fucking follow
But don’t make it harder for yourself
Don’t make it seem like you get it and you fucking don’t
Don’t perform
Don’t act
Dont try to act like I was here then I wasn’t
Oh GOD and don’t take on my pain as your own
Or disguise your pain as mine
Or hate me because you never truly showed yourself to me
Mommy I have something to ask you
The truth lies in the creases
No crevasas
Leave it alone
They always fix the shit that makes sense
Ima be off here one day
One day my arts gonna make sense
Drowned out by the tears in the artificial
One day you will kiss me
While I was here the whole time
In my mommas womb
I miss that
She held me
In ways she will never hold me again
Thats okay though
I don’t remember asking
To be
Nor should I fake like I truly want that to be
I once did
So I once had
Now it lies
We lie on a different place with different things to create and wonder
We wonder
We cry differently
It in our chest differently] remember this life differently its okay to become something different than you were before
HELIA SOUL | FEBRUARY 11th, 2025 | 2:38PM | East Baltimore
